It has been a few months since I last blogged. Sorry for the delay for those of you who are following my thoughts and journey but God has been dealing with me in many different ways. Some good and some bad, but collectively I finally put my thoughts together for this blog :)
For the past few months I have been thinking about seasons.
This has a little to do with the fact that I am in a new area and the changes in seasons here are totally different. I am still awaiting the birth of a LARGE snow here in the mountains just so I can say I have experienced winter in the mountains :) Anyways, I mentioned a few weeks ago about people complaining about winter coming and wishing summer would come fast on Facebook. I on the other hand believe differently. I hope as you read this blog your heart is opened to a new whirlwind of seasons :)
When you think about winter you normally hear the words cold, snow, ice, freezing temperatures, Winter Weather Advisory/Watch or Warning and so on. To me this year, I have looked at winter as a season of death. Now, do not take this the wrong way because I am going to explain my reasonings. However, when you look at winter, things are dead. The trees are bare, the grass does not grow, the flowers are not blooming. It is a season of death. This winter I have felt more things dead around me than I have felt them alive. Some I am happy they are gone and others I cannot figure out why God would allow things like that to happen in my life. But the more I think about this season of death, the more I am understanding that God has something bigger for me. I am beginning to learn to trust him and his heart because he knows best in every situation I am facing. These fast few months have been nothing short of heartwrenching for me and it seems like everyday I am crying for more. More of him and more of his comfort as I am faced with the reality that somethings must go. It is everyones natural instinct to hold on to what is comfortable and that is so hard for most to let go of, including myself. As I think about this season of death I am anxiously awaiting what spring will rebirth in my life. Though some are looking forward to spring coming sooner, I am taking each day at a time and awaiting my "rebirth" patiently. I know there is something good for me in the end, however, I am fearful of what challenges and "dying" obstacles I will still have to overcome before it arrives. I have already began to experience some the rebirths within the last few weeks :) So I know it will arrive sooner than later :)
I can always remember my life being full of changes and I am sure you can too. From learning you were not a little girl anymore, becoming an adult, dating, getting married, having kids, etc. the list could go on and on. And I am sure with each change you were faced with the same doubts and fears. "How am I going to accept or handle this?". I know that with God on my side, he will make a way for me to accept the new changes in my life. I am so thankful for his patience with me and the graciousness he shows me everyday. Everyday is a blessing whether it is a time or death or rebirth.
In writing this blog, Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 has been burning in my mind when it comes to thinking about seasons and knowing that there is a time for everything.
A Time for Everything
1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
Through every death and time of mourning or sorrow, there is always a time to heal and mend. I am believing and trusting on God's timing for my life. He knows me best and he knows ALL this changes continue to make me, ME :)
